My mood is darkening 

My mood swings from optimism to pessimism. 

Once there was very little pessimism and despair of thinking but circumstances and attitudes have changed. 

Come 2025, and the optimistic feelings I once had in abundance are seemingly shrinking and becoming further and furthr away from actuality. 

My happiness and the way I used to feel is evder more a distant reality from the past.  

The world is closing in upon me and nowadays often feels like a vice gripping and squeezing the essences of my positiveness to death.