Today – and on many days – I feel overwhelmed and suffocated by life.

In my heart and soul I so often feel despondency and sadness.

That is for a whole lot of reasons but I cope.

But today the way I feel in my heart and soul which is generally bit exemlifued in my face, came tumbling out.

My inner self is manifest in the face that so often mirror the inward feelings that I have been able to camouflage.

But on October 7, realisations came came tumbling out and I succumbed to emotions that spilled out like the floods occasioned when a reservoir spillway is activated.

I wonder at the start of each day, how the hours ahead will unfold. And at night I have time to reflect and to wonder – and worry – about the way forward.

My spirits and feelings occupy an up-and-down to-yo ride but exhiliaration and feelings of joy are rare with the confronting realisations now a part of my life.

Nothing is plain or straightforward any longer. My challenge is to adapt to changing situations.