It is 11.08 am on May 16 and I am feeling so down because of my inability to counter the impacts of dementia on her mind. Feelings of hopeless often overcome me.
I am sitting pondering and she is close by.
I am wishing I could go and sit on top of Mount Erebus for ten days and become lost in lonely solitude.
maybe the serenity prayer applies here. i find it helpful in my pain even though i am not a believer.
God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Reinhold Niebuhr, 1892-1971